Thank you for the flame :)

Hey A,

Less than a week ago, I happened to know your story and your Facebook post. Then, the news broke.

This morning, I happened to find your blog. Spending the whole day reading your posts, I decided to pay respect to you at your wake. The atmosphere was calm and peaceful. Through glass, I met you for the first time.

We might be strangers to each other, but I see many qualities in you that I am truly envy of:

• You are intelligent and mature. You read a lot, you reflect a lot, you know how to express your thoughts, and you clearly know the directions in your life. 
• You are truthful and firm to who you are and who you like since young, in spite of all internal and external conflicts. It’s not easy for atheist, let alone a devotee. 
• You are a man of action. Once decided, you will do your best to achieve your targets. 
• You are persevered against the odds, be it in your relationships, studies, career, or even in your final battle. 
• You are compassionate, empathetic, and selfless. You are willing to change yourself to protect the softest part deep inside your heart. 
• Most importantly, you are brave and optimistic. You may once had fragile moments, but you manage to cheer yourself up and spread optimism to your loved ones. 

Because of these, you really deserve your life transformation, your progression, the love and happiness surrounding you, and my respect. You have earned yourself the most fulfilling life a boy could have.

A, thank you for showing me the possibility that I could have become a way better man should I come to terms with myself, be braver to be myself, be more dedicated to present, and be more aspired. I hope the flame can guide me through whenever I am lost, or even bring a transformation in me. You have lived your life with impacts and difference to the world. Now, you could have further made a stranger’s life even better.

Anyway, do take your time over there (you said that it’s not darkness when you close your eyes) and bless those you care the most ;)

K. T.
9.30pm, 4 Sep 2019.